PROVO LADY STEELERS

My favorite hard hitting beastly yet feminine chikaz....PLS

Our first 7z tournament...prettiest rugby players I know!!

Rugby has become a passion for me...sometimes.lol

Strength to Change!!

"I want change" is the theme of my WEEK! I need major change...mentally...physically and most importantly SPIRITUALLY.

A lot has happened in the past couple of months and I feel like I have let life take the wheel instead of me taking grasp of what happens in my life. 

I have come to far to let one thing change who I am as a person and more importantly the priceless relationships I have built.

"I WANT CHANGE"

Making the decision in my mind is the first step...building courage and strength is the second and than actually DOING IT is the final step. 

I CAN DO IT!!

BULA IRB 7z RUGBY VEGAS...FUN!

VIVA LAS VEGAS..right! This years IRB 7z was definitely an experience of a life time. It was an opportunity for thousands of people to come together and watch some good 'ol RUGBY!

BULA...I love it! We helped out with the GO TONGA GO campaign this year which combined with BULA BEVERAGE (Provo Lady Steeler Sponsor) to get people to sign a petition saying WE WANT TONGA in the IRB 7z. If you signed the petition you got a FREE Bula. What a bargain!!. I absolutely love Sione and Keiti Pouha and appreciate everything they have done for us. (We got new NIKE tennis shoes and a Nike Bag just for helping...so LUCKY!)

The whole weekend was AMAZING...I didn't get to spend enough time with everyone but it was nice seeing so many familiar faces. Duece and Pua Lutui kidnapped me for the weekend and spoiled me rotten with a room at the COSMOPOLITAN (yes the BRAND new one).

I got all of this to myself. I didn't expect it all....but it was so nice to enjoy this...I even had a HOT TUB!

Rugby was pretty intense...and I am so glad the PROVO LADY
STEELERS repp'd it well. We did such a good job for it being our first year. People kept talking about the impression we left and that we are a team to beat! Although, sadly we lost in the final game but it was a battle well fought ...like literally...we almost fought a couple if times..LOL. I even got a YELLOW card...SAD I know. But in the end we were still happy and PROUD of what we accomplished!

Here are some other photos from the weekend..I even danced for 3RP with all my scratches and bruises it was not cute...I played with Hawaii team in the International league and wore the prettiest uniforms..wore the highest heels to the Fiji/Jboog concert..which was so FUN!...ate a lot...slept alot and gambled a little....and won NOTHING!

Wrath of Bondage...lifted!

Just when you feel like rolling down the hill of failure, the clouds open and a ray of sun light gives you strength. Just when you feel like sinking in the vast deep ocean, mother nature changes the currents and brings you afloat....its times like this when you feel like all is coming to an end, the sky is enclosing upon you, the floor beneath you is going to crumble; and you feel like there is no hope. Its times like this you loose all sight of what is important...who is important and why it is important. Your conscience is overwhelmed with doubt, fear and pain....but there is always a Savior; a saving grace.

Although at times the end feels near, the saving grace restores hope, the sun ray brings strength and the water sustains life. Just when we feel like all is lost....this saving GRACE makes everything fall into place and make sense.

The wrath of bondage has been lifted, the locks of pain have been cut and the light is bright again. The saving GRACE has brought acceptance, strength and PRIDE. I felt like all was lost...like I had no where to turn, but when I felt like going over the edge, rolling down the hill and sinking into sadness...I was RESCUED by real LOVE, the love of my saving GRACE. By His grace was my life given another chance to make things RIGHT!!

If only she knew

Images and thoughts of LOVE...

Have you ever fallen in LOVE with someone you wish you didnt? I am stuck in a hole with little water, no light, confused, weak and uncertain if I will have enough strength and courage to get out. In my mind I totally want out but my heart is in battle and turns my thoughts into pain. It has caused what I know is right...FEEL so WRONG. I often wonder should love hurt this much, should love make you feel like you can't go on? I BEG to differ because if that is what LOVE is all about...I can LIVE without it.

It boogles the mind that a person can say the words I LOVE YOU...and...I NEED YOU...but stay in denial of his HAPPINESS for something he has been stuck in for years, or even how he can spend almost every moment of breath with you, hold you in his arms like he is never going to let go, but still cannot loosen the claws of his past. That an unhealthy meal is more satisfying than the most nurturing feast he can partake of.

If only she knew what the truth holds...I often think about the possibilities of getting crazy for this SO called LOVE I may feel, but for some odd reason my mind overtakes my heart and tells me NO...for this battle is not worth fighting...for the reasons that although I should be the victor for my honesty, I will only ever be the VILLEIN.

I am slowly letting go...for no human being is worth the devotion of the heart when he is juggling two. I want REAL LOVE not this mere image of what people may think LOVE is these days.

If only she knew........maybe this LOVE could be TRUE...could grow and progress...but until honestly will leave his lips....SHE WILL NEVER KNOW...